It seems like a long time since I wrote in this blog.or visited wilkivorce.

I am almost at absolute.The consent order has gone through.I ended up being awarded all the sale of the house proceeds once everything has been paid off(joint debts and mortgage).On the day we went to court,s2bx represented himself,and looked all sad and sombre when in the court.Afterwards we were walking along the street ,discussing that it was almost over and now I had freedom from him,and he said to me'you'll never know what I wanted'.Crypitic or what?

We went our seperate ways and I went into my doctors.When I came

Next week my son is going on holiday with s2bx.So I am going away to stay with a friend, just so I don't spend the time, thinking and worrying so much about what he may be doing.

s2bx has said I resent him taking him on holiday, and I didn't give him the satistfaction of a reply, only I know how much I resent the fact that the son (who I almost died giving birth to)I struggled so hard to bring into the world and overcome so much health problems to have only for him to spend the spare time that he has with him and his 'girlfriend' (I use the term loosely as she is a granny!).I resent the time

I have Been feeling very up and down... I am managing to find things to occupy myself at the weekends that  I don't have my son, and managed to convince s2bX that I will come home when I am ready not when he says so(still trying to control me).I do enjoy those weekends, although still feel great deal of annoyance that s2b's girlfriend gets to play 'happy families' with my son, when i would rather have all the time I can with him.

Then I have been feeling down when all around me everyone seems to be in a couple, and I wonder if I am ever going to adapt to being alone, after so long being part