So....after my last blog, I've been a little messed in the head - yet again - and trying to figure things out.

I thought my plan to separate and let some time go by was a good one, and well received by my x2b.  She ended up calling me the next day at work, and I asked if she had time to think about things a bit.  She said she had and that she thought my idea was a very mature way to handle things for the time being.  She also said she was somewhat surprised by my offer, as most people would not be able to maintain that kind of relationship through an ordeal such as ours.  I agreed and was

Today was the turning point in the potential devastation of my marriage.

As I may have mentioned before, I am cursed with knowing the login and password to my wife's e-mail address. To be in a situation where she is away in another town and to have discovered that she is living with another man, not checking her e-mail is like putting a heroin addict in a room full of heroin and asking him to not take any.

For the most part, this has been a tool for me to confirm my suspicions or to hope for affirmation of her love for me to be shared with a close friend via e-mail. The past week has

Well...our 2^nd night together and we were able to go out for a few drinks and talk like adults. We kept the whole conversation light and didn't let it get emotional. I asked her how she would feel if I began dating other people. She didn't have a response. She still insists that she is not dating the man she is living with. Trying to convince me that its strictly "roomies" situation. I don't buy it, and partly because I see her e-mail conversations with other people about them. I know that's intrusive, and I don't plan on sharing that with her ever, but as a husband being left