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Feb 20
2009
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NumbPosted by David2109 in love, feeling sad and alone, feeling down |
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Feel numb today, but don't actually know why - the sun is out, it's cold but bright, so why is this tunnel so unremittingly black? Fell asleep last night with blurred vision in my left eye and a headache over my right eye - if it wasn't for the thought of my children finding me, I wouldn't have had a problem with not waking up this morning.
I really wonder whether this is fate, and if it is, whether it's planned for me ever to be truly happy with someone again. I don't want all the love I have inside to be consumed by numbness and apathy.
"Out of sorrow entire worlds have been built
Out of longing great wonders have been willed
They're only little tears, darling, let them spill
And lay your head upon my shoulder"
(Are You The One That I've Been Waiting For? - Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds)
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Claymic78
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| February 20, 2009 | ||
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Not many words I can say today David..as im not in a great place myself...but you can have a (((david))) take care |
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smurfy1973
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| February 20, 2009 | ||
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It certainly is an emotional rollercoaster, up, down and numb. Sending you warm thoughts and a big hug too. x |
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sunshinecaroline
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| February 20, 2009 | ||
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know exactly what u mean david. i had loads of love for my husband but he rejected it. Had loads of love for someone I met afterwards but he rejected it too. So what do I do with all this love I have to offer? Like you I am asking myself will I ever meet someone who will both deserve and want this love and love me too? I learnt the hard way that love is not a one way street. Maybe we have to learn to love ourselves first and then it will happen when we least expect it. Good luck and take care and yes your kids do need you as does my daughter even though she is 16. Kids always need their parents. Love and Kisses Sunshine Caroline XXX |
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shadow
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| February 20, 2009 | ||
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Hi David I used to listen to a song called 'numb' over and over again because the lyrics described exactly how I felt. (still listen to it now). Gradually, slowly your black tunnel will show a chink of light, it may not seem like it now and its hard to believe I know. Take each day as it comes, try not to look too far ahead and you will smile again. | |
fade2gray
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| February 20, 2009 | ||
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"Tired of being what you want me to be, am stuck in the shadows of walking in your shoes....." "When I was young I thought that life was so wonderful, a miracle, oh it was beatiful, magical...." Beautiful poetic and prophetic words. David, please take care of yourself. It seems as if the stress is taking such a terrible toll on you both physically and psychologically. Hop you feel alittle better soon, Fade x |
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Kate Morgan
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Hi David EVERYONE says it will get better and it is hard to believe them, but I do see now that this is a slow but gradual process leading from blind panic, grief and misery to a place where there are more and more good times and fewer painful ones. It has taken me nearly a year to realise this and in that time I have talked and talked to anyone who will listen. I have good friends and wonderful daughters. I hope that one day I will just feel indifferent to him but am not there yet. Perhaps you are not ready to let another love into your life. I know I'm not, though it would be lovely to have the comfort of someone close. |
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