life goes on...unfairly

To cut a long story short, was divorced 5 years ago, ex found someone else got her pregnant

, moved her in house (as i wouldnt move out). eventually moved out but ex blackmailed 6 children to live with him through cafcass, so couldnt claim half of house. did a diy divorce so no ancillary relief either as didnt know what i was signing. now am struggling finances as not allowed to claim tax credit for children for time that they stay with me each week and have been told by solicitor that can claim for house now as ex got married but cannot now afford sol fees of £500 down and £100 per month until sorted. Good points are that i am no longer bullied, beaten, abused, shouted at, ridiculed, falsely accused of various things to cover up his wrong doings etc, and have met wonderful man who loves me for who i am not what i can give do or look like for him. have known bf for about 15 years but didnt know he had feelings for me until spoke one day(long story, will tell one day). so to all you out there that are feeling unloved, keep your chin up cos you never know what is round the corner