Warning: Unfair bitterness and somewhat unreasonable points of view in ths post.

Sorry, I just don't have it in me at the moment to be properly pi$$ed off. Really feeling quite empty at the moment.

Bitter: Because today she told me that when I am putting on a brave face (for our daughter) and being jolly and stuff, she feels sad. This after I told her something very similar (mentioned in an earlier blog post I think) and she got angry and basically told me I was being unreasonable. Well, there you go. I guess what's ok for her is not ok for me.

Twisted: Because I definitely want out now.

Todays feeling = angry

A few days ago, I thought it was absolutely the right thing for us to wait until after Christmas to tell our daughter. Give her one last family Christmas and all that.

Now, I can't wait to move out. The writing is on the walls, I am starting to lose my ability to be dispassionate towards X2B and that's not good for the ambience.

Silly things are irritating me. Like when she had a hissy fit the other evening and stormed out, her explanation was that she felt trapped and prevented from doing what she wanted to do, she felt like she hadn't seen her boyfriend (J) for ages.

Not having a good day today. Have hit the alcohol, not bad but had decided to stay clear for a while but that's not happening tonight!!

X2B and I went to see some apartments today. This made it real. Brought it home to me that it is actually all happening. X2B wants us to move into our respective apartments ASAP, in the next 2 or 3 weeks.

She's right, of course, it is the right thing to do.

Especially as I'm started to get irritated by things she does. Silly things, I've no right, to be honest. But there you go. What really gets to me (and upsets me if I'm honest) is how easy it appears