Saturday 1st September - white rabbits!

Pinch, punch 1^st of the month and no return!!!!!

For the past couple of days all I have a craving for physical contact of any kind really.  This I find very odd, I have never in my life felt the need quite so much, a hug, holding hands, just a touch anything really.

I find myself hugging my next door nieghbour for dear life just saying hello, I shake hands at the end of a match just a little longer than nescessary.  

Well tomorrow is the day when X2B is moving rooms – thank God – out of my bed at last.  I have gone out and bought a complete set of new bedding.

This is touched with a little sadness as it means my son will be moving to start his industry year and X2B is taking his bed over.  But this will only be short term.  Son is planning on coming home next weekend already – he is only 2.5 hours away.

Been thinking today what I should say when I file for divorce.  Should I name and shame?  Pat thinks I will do this and is starting to panic, seems to think she will get something served to her at work (have to admit to a certain satisfaction here at her discomfort – ha in your face bi*ch!  OOOO did I say that – how childish – snigger.).  The thought is very tempting, but really if we want to stay civil then perhaps not a good idea.  Damn and double damn to common sense.

Communication has completely broken down – I want to talk about the future, how and what to tell the kids, when we should, finances, him finding somewhere to live etc etc.  But he just talks about trivia and hopes it all goes away.  He still has not given me his answer that he promised on Monday.  I just get crosser and crosser because he won’t talk, which is destructive in itself.  We are just moving further and further apart and I am not in the mood to fix it.  I think I may throw a fews things around – that should snap his head out of the sand or not probably.

I am going to tear up his stupid marathon photo of she and he running together that I have had to put up with looking at since Christmas.  Anyone know any voodoo?