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Aug 16
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Thursday 16th August - get over it!Posted by fio in being single, bad day |
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Daughter got the A Level results she needed – so she is happy and on her way to uni after taking a gap year.
I can’t remember a time now when my head had any peace, peace from this continual churning over facts and feelings in my mind. I go to bed and can’t settle, I wake up and its there again. Its all consuming and it makes it very difficult to concentrate and think of anything else. I read loads, but find myself having read a chapter and not remembering any of it, so I have to re-read it or just give up.
I hope when I do manage to confront him and maybe get some answers this situation may resolve itself, but I think other issues will surface – finances and divorce, jobs etc. thats when it gets really scary I’m thinking
In one way I am looking forward to this confrontation, but on the other hand it will mean the end, I have no doubts on that, and that will mean a whole different future than I had imagined just six weeks ago.
You know I am thinking I am really lucky, here I am having sleepless nights over a failed relationship, I’m not starving, I’m not in danger of losing my life, I can just indulge in self pity safely tucked up in my own bed, or writing my blog at the computer. I have good health, a roof over my head, great kids, great friends and dog. Flipping heck this stuff happens all the time – I really need to get over myself (yoga?) and realise how bloody lucky I am.
OK I have! Wheres that bloody book gone!
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scottishlady
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| August 16, 2007 | ||
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Hi Fio.... Yes... I have very similar thoughts to you.....my life seems to have taken a whole new direction that I wasn't expecting 4 weeks ago..... but, like you - I am lucky, in that I have my health, my daughter, a few friends...... AND MY GORGEOUS CAT!!!!! There is no getting away from the 'difficult' decisions that we will have to make along the line..... but we WILL come through it..... I feel I have 'turned a corner' the past couple of days..... lol....can you recommend any good books? Karen x |
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divwiki
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| August 17, 2007 | ||
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Congratualtions on you and your (current) partner seeing your daughter to this optimistic stage in her life. I'm sure you're very proud of her. Like you and Scottishlady, I have to remind myself that some people in the world are having to subsist on LESS than half a dollar a day. However, we should also bear in mind that unrequited love is the worst kind - not that that's specific to divorce, I'm sure we all know marriages where that applies. Also, I have to read and read paragraphs and I'm forgetting things a lot at the moment. Doesn't help you, but at least your not alone! |
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fio
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| August 17, 2007 | ||
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Yeah - it does help to know I am not alone diwiki. Good luck scotishlady - I'm wondering if my bloke will walk without telling me like yours did - what a cowardly thing to do to you. |
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