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Oct 04
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He wanted to come over and get some more clothes etc, so I arranged to be out all day. Went to lunch with mum and the kids, and spent afternoon shopping with them. Had quite a good day, when I got home I checked exactly what had gone, he has cleared out all his clothes, all paperwork, and taken his precious cricket memorabilia. The drawers are now completely empty, and the hangers swing in the empty wardrobes. On the one hand it's good as it means he has no excuse to return, but on the other it's just so desperately sad.
He has also taken his driving licence and passport, so maybe he can go on a lovely holiday with the silly Australian tart. Or even emigrate? The other side of the world is still too near for me. Starting counselling next week, so hopefully I will be able to move forward emotionally, as I am still feeling incredibly fragile and still have trouble coming to terms with what has happened. Once I get my head sorted out, then I can do what he wants and sort the house etc out.
I will never see him again, I will never talk to him again and I do not want to know anything about what he is doing in his lovely new life. I will get through this, and I will make a new life for myself, and I will make him pay for it. And me and my children will be ok. I will never let anyone into my heart again, no one will ever hurt me the way he has. No one will ever cause this much devastation and then walk away. I will concentrate on my children, and we will have a great life.
And now I'm going off to cry some more.... sorry
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cindygirl
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| October 04, 2008 | ||
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(((((Sad)))))) I know exactly how you feel, i'm so sorry you have to go through this. One day you will get stronger & he will be less in your thoughts & you WILL find someone else to share your life with. You feel like this as he hurt you so badly, thats why you darent think of letting anyone else into your heart. I feel the same at times but then i realise i'm depriving myself of happiness again, and what for? Him? He wasn't worth it! Let them have their tarts, it probably wont last, we just need to let go & find someone better!!!! Hang in there, Cindy |
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BiTTeR_AnD_TwIsTeD
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| October 05, 2008 | ||
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Hi Sadbird2 I don't know your story (although I can imagine) so I won't comment. But I do know on a personal level, I would not measure my happiness by who I can share it with. Be strong and happy for your children, and then when you are happy and confident with youself, you can move on with the rest if you so desire. I also still cry a lot, and sway between missing my stbx and loving her and hating her and feeling quite sick at what she has done. However, I hope one day this will pass and I know it will when I feel indifferent. In a strange way way I know that as long as I hate her, it also means that I still have some feelings for her and to get over her I will need to let them all go. One day .... |
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