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Oct 02
2008
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EatingPosted by hop in worry and anxiety, self improvement, other, my story |
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Since I've got divorced, I havent eaten properly at all.
At first, I didnt mind as I thought its alright to lose some weight. So I didnt concentrate on eating at all.
But recently my body is certainly struggling. A few weeks, I've got throat infection and I had to be hospitalised. Since then every week I get cold and have to stay at home for half of the week.
My weight seems to go down slowly but steadily and last week when I went out to my regular pub, many of my friends noticed immediately that I lost weight.
So now, I'm aware that I have to eat. But it is so hard. Most of the times, I feel stress ball stuck in my throat and I cannot swallow solid food . On average, I can eat only once a day. Hoping to get some nuitrition, I drink protein diet drink hoping it is better than just milk.
As I suffered from eating disorder before I got married, I feel scared that I might develop anolexia again. And I feel scared that I might start to feel that I need to be a skelton again...
I have to eat, but I cannot eat.
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GeJay
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| October 02, 2008 | ||
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Hi Hop  It must be so difficult, I lost 2/12 stone when mine kicked off, i just had a empty, but knotted feeling inside that hurt. it did get better tho. Best wishes and take care, do the best you can. G |
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mezzie
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| October 02, 2008 | ||
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((hop)) It is hard to care for yourself. Your body exists on nervous energy when you're stressed so whatever you eat is soon used up. Talk to your GP if you feel the eating disorder might be returning. For now accept that you might only have one meal a day and plan a time when you are calm to actually sit & eat it. Nibble fruit or veg & take a multivitamin to top your levels up. |
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lilybel
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| October 02, 2008 | ||
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Hi hop before this nightmare begain i was a size 10-12 now 14 weeks down the line i am a size 6-8, and i dont look good on it. My sister had a eating disorder many years ago - i will never forget when she told me that when she looked in the mirror all she saw was rolls of fat. she was only 6 1/2 stone . i do not want to go down that road i tell you! I am very lucky that i work with a lot of ladies and they are always trying to feed me up but my weight has still not got any better but i think its more the fact that not only do i work full time but i have 3 children that keep me very active. they are also the reason i eat when im at home because we have always had our meals together. my mum said to me when she saw me that i should be showing him what he's missing and that i may be down but im not out. and ive got a tenner bet hes looking after himself, because they always do dont they! my advice - take care of yourself and eat little but often. become a salad dodger  |
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hop
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| October 05, 2008 | ||
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GeJay>Thank you I'm trying to eat, but it is just so hard! I feel really weak and I dont know if its connected but I sleep too much! I just want to get out of this horrible feeling! But I hope time heals... mezzie>Thank you Today, I slept almost all the day, and still I feel sleepy... Naturally I dont have appetite but feel so weak. Thought it would get better sooner than this, but divorce is more than I thought in various way. But I'm going to beat it! Just eating problem and sleeping problem is hard to control... Ah need to eat! lilybel>Thank you Actually since I developed eating disorder, the thought that my body is roll of fat always remains. Just how strong it is matters. At the moment, I have that thought but it is not affecting me so badly. I just want to know when this nightmare finishes! Just this thing in my throat makes it impossible to have any solid food...  Time heals but it is hard to endure! |
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