Monday

Dear Blog Woke up  - really ok

Went to work early - Charlotte was in!!

Trying to plan life and get moving in right direction: ----

1. Ring Halifax to find out how much I can have - bloody useless - can't book me an appointment as don't have any (implied because of credit crunch).

2. Gave Charlotte a letter requesting different start and finish times so I can pick up Georgia as she is upset. Don't think she will buy this and Georgia is 13 so can't get on family friendly policies!! But I am getting divorced so should be more lenient - I hope.

3.  Arrange to get house valued so I can work out if what he is giving me is a good deal.

 4. Make an asset list - include poole pottery, beswick figures and peters golf stuff.

5. make a list of things that urgently need doing (so want financial help) front door, tap, oliver's window, bathroom? Can I swing that??????

Went to mums - came home geo wanted roast so I cooked a roast, we had candles and best plates, flowers on the table, wine - just me and her - wonderful!!

Went to bed - peter came in geo and me in bed - spoke to geo I didn't speak.

Resolutions:

1.  Learn calmness.  Do not get aggressive/emotional/cry when dealing with him.

2. hell I feel better today!

3. Write a list in my red book of bills and when they come in etc - house, car, food, insurances etc.

4. Do not book a holiday for October - we can't be doing this anymore! Do not allow him the pleasure of a family occasion and to be distant with me - because he gets all the pleasure and company and I get the isolation and upset.

5. Save, save, save, I do not need another pair of River Island Boots, or another skirt - I can wear the ones I have!!