out for the first time with our married friends

Tonight was the first time I was to go out with our married friends since we have split up.

I went shopping in Hertford today with Georgia and we both bought tops from a posh shop in the sale.  My top was lovely.  Because I am so thin I only have one tiny six 6 jeans to wear and I am washing these for tomorrow.  So i wore black leggings and my high boots.

I thought I scrubbed up ok.

I was really nervous about go to the bar, being leaving on my own and just  being with the marrieds!!

Our R & L were there.  R (the male) asked where Pete was - how come he got out of it. And I told him and he said he was embarrassed.  The thing is L cheated on R last year for a whole year ..... how they are living together and have patched things up I don't know.  I coud L was a bit nervous around me and R was asking things and I was not giving answers that L liked.  R was asking would I have him back after what he has done, and I said it was 2 years! not a quick shag how could I trust him? and I committed to him and him to me for life and he hasn't done that.

R is in the same situation as me.  I have been friends with R & L for 15 years, I have never talked so much to R as I did tonight.  I was looking at him and in his eyes I could recognise my pain ? do we have a look.

I love George Harrison - love him! R asked the band to play some George Harrison - they played the Beatles - but still nice to have some ask ... care for.

Anne and Dave were stars never left me out and looked after me.  R doesn't know I know and I was looking at him and although I could see the same pain in him, there was something quite handsome about him - I don't know if the grief was the attraction - I don't know. ... but I felt a bond with another person, but a person who is attached to a cheat and a liar who happens to be my friend.

Confusing times. 

Carrie

ps. the band were bloody brilliant - 4 guys and a girl singer. I really enjoyed!  Thnk I might like to learn to play the drums! lol! joke.