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Sep 21

2008

At peace with myself

Posted by buxtonman in positive thinking, moving on, accepting its over

You know, it is the most wonderful thing in the world to wake up feeling content. It's not about the house you live in (I know this as I currently live in a hastily rented hovel!) and it's not about money.

It's about knowing who you are and accepting the way things are and most of all, looking forward to a wonderful and exciting future. It is a long way from the one I planned though! My family is gone as I knew it. I still have my children even though I was demoted to a part time Dad. But part time Dad is better then never having experienced the joy that they bring me.

It is a future full of wonderful opportunities; both in my work and my personal life. Maybe even the chance to get it right next time! To be free of the lies and deceit is JUST GREAT! To be free of the longing for my cheating ex is a dream come true! I don't love her anymore at all. In fact, I feel some sympathy for her as I can see she is heading into stormy waters though she is blissfully unaware. I won't say why on here as I don't want to give details that could identify her. I am totally unconcerned over who she may be sleeping with though I will want to keep an eye on the children in case their happiness in compromised.

I have also discovered there are some wonderful people out there! Particularly one lady...you know who you are I think....I have strengthened other friendships too in ways I couldn't have imagined. This came only from finding out who my friends were when I needed them.

I am absolutely knackered now after flying home from San Francisco but I still feel great! Trying to avoid going to bed at a silly time...

This week I will see my children (as well as my ex when I pick them up). I am thrilled about the prospect of seeing them on Tuesday and indifferent about seeing my ex.

I didn't win the lottery though. Bugger.

Andy

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fitbird said:

September 21, 2008
		Wonderful to see such a positive blog bux and so glad to hear you are feeling free and life is moving in the right direction for you xxx

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Sadbird2 said:

September 21, 2008
		Andy, You are an inspiration to us all! Thank you x

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IKNOWNOW said:

September 21, 2008
		Andy, Sounds like you are in a good place. Finding some sort of realisation about our situations I think is half the battle. Friends on wiki have certainly shown me that there is a future, a bright one, (hopefully). That particular lady, will have struck gold. You are a lovely bloke, we all know the harem is just a smoke screen and the proper egg timer is only going to be for one lady, lol. Enjoy feeling at peace with yourself, makes you a whole new person in yourself. Take care xx Sarah xx

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IKNOWNOW said:

September 21, 2008
		I feel a little left out now, not being a bird and all, is that a name change I feel coming on? Lets see, Fatbird, Bigbird, Bigboobbird, Hotbird, Sexybird etc Sorry, didn't mean to sabotage your blog Andy, just couldn't resist, lol xx Sarah xx

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spooky said:

September 21, 2008
		Hi there Buxt, So beautifully written, wish I was that lovely lady, you are a true star!! Spooky xx

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carrie.watling said:

September 21, 2008
		Dear Andy What can I say - you are obviously well liked and well loved - she is indeed very lucky - I am sure she will appreciate you as much as you deserve. How exciting - days and nights - hamsters and red**** you've got it all to come ....... Carrie xx

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marriaa said:

September 21, 2008
		bux, i am sure it is a wonderful feeling to be contented.just hope it isnot too bad for x2b for the children 's sake.Enjoy yourlife ,we are hereonly once