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Sep 19
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Have found my mind wandering of late and a smile appearing on my face when I least expect it. I find myself thinking about certain things when I should be concentrating on others. I have a spring in my step and find myself singing all the time.
I have now realised that I have good friends; special friends in my life who love me just for being me and maybe that has helped me to smile even through some bad days.
I can now see my life as an adventure; exciting, a little scary and uncertain, funny, sad and full of a whole spectrum of emotions. Now I have friends to share the adventure with it makes my whole life a lot more inviting.
Friends come into your life sometimes forever and other times just to guide you through the tough times. I am glad to say I have had both.
We were talking in the chatroom the other day about being happy and content with who we are, what we are. On the whole now I can look at myself and say that I am happy with how I look. I maybe overweight but hey that just makes me all the more cuddly. I am no different to how I looked when I was married, maybe a tad heavier, but I feel good in my skin.
I think inside I have things to work on, but my friends are helping me with those. A lack of confidence, self-esteem and the ability to accept compliments gracefully are among those things.
Sorry, my mind is once again wandering and a smile sneaks across my face. I feel like I have things to look forward to again, the Halloween Party being one of those.
I no longer feel guilty about leaving my children although I must admit sending an email to their father last night I still had to think how to word things about contact. I still feel that anything I say maybe used in some way, silly I know. It is my life now and none of my ex-husband's business. This is the hardest thing to teach myself. I no longer have to answer to him. I know I will do best by my children.
I have a fuzzy head and can't concentrate. Going to go and make the children's tea now, hopefully they won't end up with custard on toast and baked beans and apple pie.
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Daisy040
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| September 19, 2008 | ||
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Sarah.. nothing but a hug...and a smile... (hope the littles ones tea turned out alright !!!  ) Daisy xxx |
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Metalraver
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| September 19, 2008 | ||
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Sarah i'm so glad that you are feeling happier and smiling that beautiful smile of yours. I also have had similar experiences recently (how very bizarre) and i find special thoughts like these are meant to help us in the healing process. Why just the other day a very good friend introduced me to new ways of being and i relish the thought of these times now. So go on Sarah take a big leap of faith and stride out into your new life and grab whats owing to you! All the best Dave xxx |
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marriaa
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| September 20, 2008 | ||
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SARAH, I am amazed about the transformations I have witnessed in some of you in wiki.The greatest transformation i have seen in you and another one, will not mention her name ,but she loves her cats and her car.! I am so happy for you,you are young and this how you should feel. when you smile the world smiles with you ,you will soon have the whole of wiki in this mood. take carexxxxx x is exactly that,you do not have to answer to him. If he is not happy ,suggest he has the children for awhile.lol |
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