Thanks

Thanks for advice all.  I realised today that I have not heard from him for two days and it kind of feels good, although weird too.  My nisi should be coming through tomorrow which means we are another step closer to closure.  I am still not really sure how i feel about him.  Somedays I hate him and am angry with how things have turned out, other days I miss parts of our life together but mostly I am relieved that it is almost over.  I just wish he could stop listening to people who only know what he tells the and think they can judge me and tell him the things I am supposed to be going to do i.e. stop him from seeing the children.  This has never been my intention and never will be unless he puts them in danger (he's a drinker!), which I really don't think he will.  I just can't wait for it all to settle down.