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Sep 11
2008
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Am currently siting in a hotel room 3am in Tokyo and have been in the chat room for a while.
First serious attempt and thank very much to everyone, I really enjoyed the chat.
So tomorrow I return to Holland to my flat, where I will spend it alone looking at the 4 walls. On Saturday I get the flight to Durham and will go "home" - if you can call it that.
I have been doing this weekend thing since Dec 4 2006, weekly commuting to Holland for work and then back again. Very quickly she decided that it would be better if I went back on a Sunday night and it made it too early for her on a monday..
So now it is all in the open and I am no longer welcome.
No longer welcome in the house that our family used to be in. Am sure that Saturday will be difficult and xtb will hijack my daughter and stop me from seeing her. Not long before I loose her as well.
As for my son, he understands and will probably suffer the most.
God I miss them so much.
So onto the point my days of being excited to go home are gone. Am dreading it, dreading being a stranger in my own home.
Dreading seeing the face of the woman I am still in love with....
Wish there was a magic pill for all this, a magic wand a magic anything.
Turnaround touch the ground, click your heels 3 times,
Didn't work, oops here come the water works,
God I miss my kids....
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marriaa
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| September 12, 2008 | ||
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Hi Meish, it is hard for you but it is as hard staying in the matrimonial home ,so much memorries ,you can even hear the person sometimes. For long time waiting for the key at the door,so ther is always pain for the innoncent partners where ever they are. So many nice men and women around,why could they not paired up? You are still young ,you will find that special person ,it will not be the same but you will find love again. Take care |
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Poppie
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Hi Meish, This is a most difficult time for you, nothing makes any sense, you just want it all to stop but it doesn't. You have to try to move through the grief and pain and get through one day at a time. It is not easy being in the matrimonial home, I chose to stay so I didn't have to uproot my son from the home and friends he loves but it is not easy living in the home you once shared with the person you loved most. Be kind to yourself and take care. Poppie x |
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Daisy040
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Mieshka there is no magic wand unfortunately, sad i know..but someone said to me last night, all of this that we go through makes us stronger people in the end....all of us here have just got to get through that yellow brick road with all its troubles !!! you take it easy hun and wiki peeps are always here for you.. big hugs Daisy xxx |
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