Revenge - A dish best served cold?

Probably not a good time to write, a couple of sake's to many and a willing internet to explore...

Have been contemplating the whole revenge issue...  I know I know unwise.

I responded to a blog a while ago and adopted some great high ground and stated something along the lines of I will be successful, happy and show her she was wrong. 

 It felt good when I wrote this, it gave me confidence in my then time of darkness.  I thought that things could not get any lower so I could only move upwards and morally I believe that this is the right way forward....

But.... always a but.

This was before she started being vicious, saying that she is still in contact with him, still saying infront of me that she loves him.  In doing so deliberately trying to inflict as much pain - hey I know what she has done I do not need her to tell me.

Wether she likes it or accepts it I am still hopelessly in love with her but not to the extent that I can carry on.   Am digressing off the point of the blog and in danger of loosing the point.

I have discovered much about him.... and them....  and due to her consistent attacks and digs I think that the justice that I once sought of,  be strong and successful is not enough.

It will be enough at a point in time but right here right now I want to hurt them both.

The way that I have been hurt and the way that my children are suffering....

But what to do... am a bright guy and have always been pretty creative and resourceful.  Thinking out the box to the extent that sometimes you wished that the ides actually stayed in the box.  If you get my meaning.  Anyway... 

I am probably not going enact any of these things.... but if like me your mind wanders for a few seconds and thinks of things that you could do if you were a different person.  Then hold those thoughts..

I know many will say do not do it and for all the right reasons.  I know, I know, let it go, move on.  Adopt the higher ground.  Higher ground my backside... am for once going to be selfish and indulge myself.

So if you are the victim

If you are the injured party, join me close your eyes for few seconds.

Try and hold back the tears and think of what you would do.

No matter how petty, how trivial or how pathetic.  Moreover what could I/you do and them not know about it.  Ahh the list start to form.

Go on you know you are thinking of closing those eyes.  Be selfish

 My ideas are as follows, maybe the start of a long list, who knows...  If nothing else it will make me laugh in years to come,

1. Sign up lover to gay porn websites.  May not be successful due to spam blockers?

2. Sign up boyfriend to gay and bisexual newletters and get them sent to work.  He is an MD so how cool would this be.

3. Sign up stbx to bondage fetish mail catalogues and send them to work.  She is an HR director, again pretty cool..

 4. Get her signed up for every sex catalogue going and get them sent to work.

5. This was one I found on the net, unfortunately I am not this creative.  Rub fibreglass in the gusset of her knickers and put them back.  Cruel but hey how much pain has/is she causing.  Sorry for the rather intense visual.

6. Do nasty things to her toothbush, again not mine - but I like it.

7. Do nastier things to her myraid of lotions and creams, mine spawned from 6

8. Swap her vitamins for wait gain tablets.  Again not one of mine but a great suggestion!

9.  Put hairspray on windscreen of his car.  Apparently you cannot see it and it is impossible to get off.  Plus is renders the wipers useless.

 10.  Then the biggies, the dangerous ones.  But allow me to dream.  A can of nitromors paint stripper liberally applied to his Landrover Discovery.......  I like this one so much I need to say it again.  A can of nitromors paint stripper applied liberally to his brand spanking new Landrover discovery.... hmmmmmm...

So if I had the courage or is it stupidity what else would I do.  I am thinking of starting my top 10 in true Nick Hornby style.  I know I am dreaming.

But if I could...

If I would....

How sweet would it be... need to wait until everything is done and dusted and it will not effect the outcome...

Go on close your eyes, you know you want too...

Off to bed, 1.38am in the land of the rising sun..

Speak soon, if you made it to the end thanks.  If you manage to comment do not be to hard on me.  At least allow me to dream a little...

Am still trying to take it all on board....

Night

M,