Tuesday 31st July - a sunny day always makes you feel better

Slept OK last night.

Managed to stay out practically all day today til 10pm and what a lovely day it was – no more rain, sun all the way. I felt very positve about my future, played tennis – yes again, I know, I know but I am going to make the most of it, had another long chat with a friend, honestly I don’t know how anyone could cope without friends.

One thing I was thinking about today, when I was considering how lucky I was to have such supportive friends, was that my hubby and I don’t have any mutual friends. Is this unusual? When something like this happens it must be very difficult for mutual friends who may be asked to take sides. But we have different sets of friends, I guess it shows just how we had started to separate our lives. I am friendly withhis friends and he with mine, but that’s it.

The afternoon was spent with my daughter – buying underwear!!! Nice girly afternoon together – I wanted to go into Anne Summers, but she wouldn’t let me!!!! We jumped the wrong way down the escalator in Debenhams tho’ that was fun – nearly went flat on my face!

This evening I went to visit my friend who is having radio therepy, hadn’t told her about my problems – but being the good friend she is, she guessed something was up so I spilled the beans. She has gone through divorce herself so was very practical.

She is doing great herself and her prognosis is good.

So my conclusion at the end of this day is I should confront him sooner rather than later, in a calm way, in my own time before I just lose it one day and start screaming at him.

I was going to wait till October. I have quite a clear short term plan – ie confront him, try to stay calm because I suspect he will try and throw the blame my way – he always has blamed outside influences if something goes wrong – very good at self pity (ooo do I sound bitter?). After this stage I can’t see anything – just a blank, I’m kind of thinking that maybe I have some psychic abilities and actually as soon as I have confronted him the world will end? If so I suggest everybody goes out and makes sure that they have done that thing which they have always wanted to do – quickly! I’m off to find Jude Law!

Well he has another job interview tomorrow so I really hope he gets this one.

I’m going to buy that car tomorrow – hope its still there!

Also booked myself an dentist and optician appointment, might as well get every thing fixed before we start splitting the assets