house!!!

Wednesday I got a call from the housing association saying they might have a house for me!!.. its being refurbished, new bathroom, new kitchen.. I'm very excited and a bit worried that I won't get it. OMG I so hope I get it....fresh start for me and the kids!!!!

Its been awful walking on eggshells here for the last few months in the middle of a divorce and still living with HIM!! ugh.. the kids have suffered as he has been telling them its "all my fault" even though he agreed we needed to split. He told them he still loved me... which he explained to me as meaning he still cared about me.... I love my cat... kids don't understand the different types of love. 

 What an awful time to start a new relationship.. I met my new fella at the beginning of the year. He's going through struggles of his own, health wise and going for custody of a baby daughter... we are holding each other up. Except every so often I crack under the pressure of the divorce and start being nasty to him.. I think if I had my time over again I would have waited til I was out of here...