getting a few things moved on and sorted out.

I have been talking to s2bx on the phone, after trying unsucessfully for a face to face meeting.After I found out that he missed a few payments on the life insurance policy and mortgage I wanted to know what was happening,as I don't want the house repossessed and if either of us drop down dead the life insurance to be paid out.Finally sorted it out with him and he had been arranging to pay the outstanding payments back.So that is a weight off my mind, even though I find it hard to trust him, as why if he can make overpayments to catch up on payments could he not have simply paid things in the first place.

My son told me he bought her(slapper) a diamond ring.Maybe that is what has taken the money?

And he had the cheek to go on when I took our daughter for a chinese meal at the weekend.Its seems he can query what my money goes to but I am not meant to query what he spends his money on.

I  also got a quite nasty phrased e.mail from him so have e.mailed him back giving him a few home truths and asking why after almost 25 years he cannot talk things that need sorted out about the finances and moving  face to face.I think he is scared I will get emotional(I won't because I am so over him)or because his slapper is jealous and suspicious if we even spend time together.I have noticed she sits in his car, watching and waiting when he comes to pick up my son when he has him, she can't even let him do that on his own..How pathetic!So anyway no doubt I will have a verbally onslaughtby telephone  tomorrow once he gets the email.(Looking forward to that.. the idiot).

Did some more chucking out today, thrown out the big winter quilt that we used to sleep in together,am thinking of getting another one,out with the old and on with the new..anything that gets that man out my life the better.

Am trying desperately to get the house ready to be put up for sale, is it just me but I would love to get rid of all the furniture and start again in my new place,be it that I buy somewhere or rent..anything that reminds me of him that has been given to me in the past 25 years I want to bin...!

On another note I am aware tomorrow is the day before my 25th wedding anniversay and I will find that different..but I now keep thinking of last year when he took me out to a chinese restaurant to celebrate and we could have been complete strangers for all the interest that he was taking in me.I feel like in such a short time(less than a year) I have moved and changed so much.Never again will I settle for being treated like that and never again will I be able to trust someone how I trusted him.She is welcome to him.   I read the article in the forum about Men and mid life crisises andwhat drives them to have affairs and how they feel during and after..it is him to a t.What a complet waste of space!