Feeling a little guilty today

Good morning (or afternoorn or even evening, depending on when this is read) to my Wiki Blog, and all who read it.

I have a little confession to make. I feel a guilty today, really guilty.

The thing is - last week I joined up, and I seem to have done nothing else other than to slate off one person. My wife.

Now, don't get me wrong, there were no untruths whatsoever in what I wrote, and part of me feels that she deserves a bloody good dressing down, but I don't think I once mentioned any of her good points.

So, now's the time to redress the balance. To set the record straight so to speak, and, here goes:

Kindness - She has, and particularly with old people that she cares for in her work, a heart of gold. I mean, she goes beyond the call of duty on that one.  Here's an example:

Our next door neighbours are about 65. He has just died having suffered with parkinsons for many years. My wife cared for him until he died. And, on every wedding anniversary and birthday she would, without fail, go to the shops (because he couldn't) without anyone knowing, and buy a card that was from him to his wife. She'd help him to write it out, just to make sure she got a card from him.

She is like that with other people.

Loyalty - She is fiercley loyal. She has never strayed or considered endangering the family values she holds for one moment. I trust her implicitly.

So there, it's not all bad. (I mean, most other things a pretty shite). But if I was an old person needing looking after, that needed someone loyal by my side, I'd have nothing to complain about.

But I'm not. So here I am, in here complaining, because most other stuff previously described in my blog are worth complaining about. 

So, having spent last week complaining, I've spent a lot of the weekend reflecting. Yes, because of a little guilt, but also because I really don't see the point in complaining if I don't actually intend on doing somethin about it.

Now, I know that it's little steps at a time, so yesterday I made a decision to make a little step. And by telling my blog (and you) about this little step, I'm sure to be stronger to continue with that step today and tomorrow. So, here goes:

I DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DRINK YESTERDAY!!

Nope, not a drop.

Now, I've tried things like this before, and what tends to happen is that I'll go 2 or 3 days, then say to myself "Well done Drew, you don't actually have a drinking problem. Have a bottle of wine to celibrate". And off we'll go again.

I think the problem is that, if at any stage I was to mention my concerns about my drinking to my wife, she's more likely to lodge that one in a secure part of her brain for a later date (so that she's got something to hold against me so to speak) rather than to support and encourage me during any difficult times.

So, instead, I'm placing my trust in 2 people instead (shame really) who are... my Wiki blog (I can read about my triumphs again and again for future  encouragement), and you Wiki people.

So, that's it for the moment. I'm sat at home, on my PC (working, honestly). I've found a spare 1/2 hour to do this, but I must press on.

I'm sure to be thinking throughout the day, my mind is always going. I'll probably update this later, but if not... have a great day Wiki peeps.

Drew.

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