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Aug 17
2008
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My wedding anniversary......
Hi gorgeous Mr Blogman and wiki pals..
im dreading this week...why ?? because its my wedding anniversary friday...
i remember our last one, heaven, lovely dinner, lovely lovely wine....lovely summers even, and lovely restuarant.......
little did i know a year later, the barsteward would have upped and had an affair..
what am i going to do on friday ?
got the day off wk, simply cant go in, work reminds me of him enough !! let alone on friday !!!
ok, well you know me !! and my love for my car so booked MY H in for MOT 10am...which will take approx 45 mins then hope to go for massage and some me time...mum said she would take the day off but I said no....i need a me day...
so why do i feel so tearful right now ??
i wouldnt have him back ? would I ? no....we all know that....like many of us on wiki we wouldnt have "them" back....doesnt stop the hurt though does it ???
the questions....my still unanswered questions.....
so tis sunday afternoon 4.50pm....had a lovely weekend away....come home to my babies...you know the cats, all 3 of them but i have a sense of dread....a sick feeling in my stomach...i just want to get trashed tonight and cry loads......not going to do any good though is it ??
why cant i stop missing him ???????? not the man he is now but the man i married and thats my point, i think ?, Im feeling rubbish due to W/A 22nd August..
Do you Amanda take "N" to be your lawfally wedded husband...." to have and to hold in sickness and in health...oh and if he wants to have affairs you will still be there for him...bla bla bla...."
and my answer at the time, "I DO"
ok so the preacher (and i say preacher as we got married in Las Vegas) didnt really say that bit about the affairs thing but whatever !!!!! if only i'd known...
my answer now ?? "I dont"..
im sorry im rambling like a real idiot tonight...Im just dreading this week and wish someone would take it away from me....so if anyone out there can help little ole daisy it would be most appreciated, and I thank you...
I hope you guys have had a lovely weekend....and big hugs to you all...roll on wiki eh !!!!
lots of love
Daisy....(amanda)
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mirfield
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Hello A Bloomin wish I could say something to make this week better- all I can say is we're all here if and when you need us. Love Amanda xxx |
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Poppie
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((((((((((daisy))))))))))) Thinking of you, I have had all of the anniversaries now but the wedding was the most difficult. Like you I miss the man I married but I do not miss the person he became. Keep yourself busy daisy and do something special for you, you deserve it. Love Poppie x |
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Bloddy
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Hi Sounds like you are doing all the right things to get through the day - I find planning ahead really helps. Why not plan a night out or a night in with friends on the day - better to be upset (if you are going to be) in company than alone? Hope you have a good week Bloddy xxx |
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Cad
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Hi Amanda Keep strong you're on the right path, thanks your post I'm feeling pretty low myself at the mo but 2 things you said really strike a chord. "Not the woman I married!" Not at all and that hurts immensley. And the other thing as you so rightly put it is that although we wouldn't have them back it still hurts like hell. At least you know what love and commitment is and in time you'll heal and find a better life. Everyone here at wiki will be here for you so come in for support whenever you feel you need it. Cad |
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Goodman01
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D, That day that you talk of, used to be a day that had some significance, a day that you and your husband, had an excuse to go out for dinner and buy each other presents. Now it is just the 22nd of August, a late summers day that may or may not be a good one. My mates have decided to make this day a day of celebration, one where they celebrate my freedom, next year I will be out on that day, with my friends on an annual stag type event, I am looking forward to it. GM |
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Daisy040
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ooohh now theres an idea ??? make it my separation day ??? goodman ?? good idea ! thankyou.. Daisy xxx |
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Convict_Keeper
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Amanda, know exactly what your going through (well apart from being cheated on as that never happend for me) it should have been my 15th anniversay on the 7th. I just kept myself busy and in the evening had a wee bit to drink. dont think there is a magic formula for these times, I just tried to lok forward and leave the past where it belongs Hope things go well for you G |
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spooky
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it would have been my anniversary on 31st august so we could celebrate separation day together!!!! I have been divorced for 5 years and last year I completely missed the day! He has remarried so I am more philosophical about all these dates, we are no longer married so the day means nothing!! The first one is always the worst but it will pass, keep yourself busy. Keep off the wine, go and do something constructive. Do something you have never done before and make it a little scary - always good for making you feel you can change the world!!!! xx |
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kidsinbulgaria
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Amanda, This date is going to keep on coming around every year...great idea to make it a pamper day and a celebrate freedom day from now on. I'll raise a glass on friday for you too.... If there is a next time, choose a better date to get married. Historic Events on the 22nd August 22/08/1985 British Airway 737 burst into flames at M/cr Airpot. 55 killed. 22/08/1968 General De Gaulle failed assasination attempt 22/08/1941 Nazi's take Lenningrad under seige which lasted till 1944 22/08/1922 Michael Collins (Sinn Fein founder) assasinated 22/08/1642 Beginning of English Civil War 22/08/1485 King Richard III killed at Battle of Bosworth Mike x |
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Milly1
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Howdy Daisy Know how you feel. On my first anniversary since my husband left me, I was in Japan. I didn't want to spend the day in the same four walls, lamenting what had happened. I booked a ticket, got a Japan rail pass and had an adventure on my own. I was so busy bathing in hot springs with wild monkeys, playing in snow, looking at Mount Fuji from my bath and getting smashed and doing karaoke with a Japanese snowboarder in Kyoto that I didn't even think about the day. In fact, I think I was on a bullet train from Kyoto to Hiroshima that day. Two words. Hell and yeah.  |
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Donnylass
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Daisy, I found the days leading up to my anniversay far more traumatic than the actual day-in fact now, I can't even remember what I did!!! At least I didn't have to spend it with scumbag, so it must have been a good day  You take care and big hugs xxxx  |
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megan
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Amanda Its just a day. Doesn't make the one before it harder or the one after any easier. The 28th will be my 32nd (yes still married) but it will I hope be just one of many days that I have got through and come out the other end of. So come on daisy chin up and see you at wiki Christmas. Lets both look forward not back. (((((((((((( amanda)))))))))) Megan |
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Mockingbird
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Daisy - really thinking and feeling for you at moment. Its sun night and my anniversary is tomorrow. Actually think might have to go blog as he told me this eve (we were trying to make a go of it) that he didnt want us - mmmm nice timing again... Anyway, you have a fab week and I think Donny is right - its the days leading up to it rather than the day itself. LOL Mockingbird (SJ) |
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