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Aug 16
2008
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Letting goPosted by Bloddy in moving on, being single, accepting its over |
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Its been 3 months since my partner and I separated so abrubtly and I'm really trying to move on but its soooooooo hard.
I'm going out tonight with a friend and leaving our child with a baby sitter as the last time I went out and xp baby sat (hate that term - she is her child too) she told me off for coming home late ! and I said sorry! This means she will be at her new place with her new gf and its driving me mad. I know I'm putting too much wasted energy into trying to break them up or spoil things when I should be concentrating on me - so Mama Mia here I come.
Its hard to believe that you can trust someone with your life and future for 15 years and then it can all change. I have never been single as an adult and I feel scared and lonley. XP was so confident (overpowering at times) she made me feel I couldn't do lots of things but I'm learning that I can - even if I did have to check with a neighbour how long its takes a cook a chicken - I'll get there.
I have learnt over the last few months that my moods come and go and I can move to cautiously up beat to desparate very quickly. Hopefully recording some of my feelings will help me recognise the positives and move on.
Good luck to us all
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fitbird
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| August 16, 2008 | ||
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Big hug to you. I am so with you on all the emotions. You'll love mamma mia, i went a few weeks back and sang and cried. My s2bx refers to it as babysitting and he won't do it!!!! You can't babysit your own child. Won't have in house alone now as god knows what he is reading through or looking at. I keep being assured by all the wonderful peeps here it gets better, I know it will for both of us and all those out there in a not god place at the mo Clairexxx |
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findingmyself
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| August 16, 2008 | ||
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With you in that scary place.My s2bx had always seemed so capable. Now i find that things he made me feel so useless at are not half as hard as he made them look. In fact I wonder why they took him so long...but that's another story! | |
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