Back to Reality

Back to reality

Well I'm back after 2 weeks away at our house in France and I'm feeling a bit down today...... It was fabulous to run away from my problems for a couple of weeks......   but I'm back and there all still here waiting for me. I was hoping that somehow it would all have gone away ........... I suppose I will just have to face facts and get on with sorting things out myself.

The first 2 days the x2b was there and it was hard but I smiled and was happy and I got through it. I kept thinking of all my wiki mates willing me on and your support was fantastic. (you know who you are) so thanks to all the people who offer so much help and advice.

We went swimming in the river near our house..... visited the beach and enjoyed the sun and the beautiful location.......some great food some fantastic wine ....I cant wait to go back and hope next time you will all come with me!!!!!!!!!!!

I did have a couple of down days brought on by too much time to think and occasionally felt lonely .........but I survived and I am trying so hard to think about my future positively........I know the dark days are not over for me yet but the sun is out more often than it was........

I did get my happy holiday ......the first time I have felt that way at our house.......not quite how I had imagined it being when we bought it but still a happy time with my son. ..........I did feel like something was missing but I suppose I wanted to share it with the man I loved....... I know that man has gone and I will have to get used to being happy on my own.

I shed a few tears yesterday when we left..........not sure why....... could have been the thought of back to reality....