I've just found out I've got a housing association house.. didn't take that long I've only been waiting since May.

I'm just scared about being just me and the kids... hope I can cope with the finances and the whole place needs decorating. I've been shaking since I found out. Saying that its also a relief as living in the same house as my ex has been hell. Trying to keep civil towards each other because of the kids is proving harder and harder..

Friends have offered to help with the decorating.. and I've had an offer of some furniture.. its just a massive step for me. 

I'm feeling so

Wednesday I got a call from the housing association saying they might have a house for me!!.. its being refurbished, new bathroom, new kitchen.. I'm very excited and a bit worried that I won't get it. OMG I so hope I get it....fresh start for me and the kids!!!!

Its been awful walking on eggshells here for the last few months in the middle of a divorce and still living with HIM!! ugh.. the kids have suffered as he has been telling them its "all my fault" even though he agreed we needed to split. He told them he still loved me... which he explained to me as meaning he still cared about me.... I

Ugh where do I start.. whirlwind romance.. met in the October, moved in, in the December... engaged Christmas, Married in May. On my birthday. Married the day before his twin sister in fact...but we kept it quiet so as not to steal her thunder.

Bought a house together. Spent many hours doing it up and decorating it was a lovely little house we were so proud..

Got pregnant with my first daughter and found things going wrong the first night I was home.. desperately needed a cuddle and he turned his back on me. Dunno if it was the fact he'd seen me give birth.. apparently it does that to some