Have spent the last few days back and to to the hospital.  My 17 year old daughter was admitted last Saturday in severe pain.  Turns out she had a ruptured cyst on her ovary which got infected.  This is the second time this has happened in 2 years.  She has been in absolute agony and on morphine.  There is nothing worse than seeing your child in pain and not be able to help.  She is getting better and hopefully will be discharged today.

 I rang her dad in work from A and E on Saturday.  At this point we did not know if she would need surgery.  He refused to come saying he was tired.  I pointed

I have finally done it.  Been to see a solicitor.  The letter came through this morning with the copy sent to him.  It only asks that he pay me half the mortgage until the house is sold and that he not enter the house while I am not here.  Also that he attends mediation to sort out the money.

 I feel like poo and am so sad it has come to this.  28years of my life has been destroyed.  I tried to so hard to make it

Have just ssen my daughter who saw her dad today for the first time in 5 weeks.  I am really upset not because she saw him because i hoped he would turn up this time (he has let her down 3 times)  I dont know why i am upset.  Can't stop crying.

I have had a bad day, on the verge of tears all day.  I think him seeing our daughter has brought it all back.  She said he seemed cold.  He still insists i threw him out and I wont be getting a penny.

Why did it have to be like this.  Why couldn't he love me enough.  I miss him so much and just want to talk to him.  I know there's no going  back but it