So one year has gone by.  It had to be the most shocking year ever.  To be abandoned is so hurtful, so painful.  To be emotiionally abused scars you.  Sure you find the strength to carry on but you'll never be the same after the pain.  You can't look at love with the same pure naive eyes you once did.  If one ever gets lucky enough to experience a love again it isn't and will never be the same.  Perhaps its better to be a realist than a dreamer.  Now that you've gone through what you thought was impossible you'll be prepared next time rather than surprised.  We can develop our thick skins and

just picked up for e fro sols along with a £700 bill for last months work! thats my holiday up the shute then! chilled with a glass of beer then feel so bloody down! alone and desperate!! please make it get better soon! i would have been cheaper to hire a hit man rather than a

Just read the replies to my blog and want to say thank you so much it is actually  heartwarming to have people tell me that they understand and know how I feel I guess it's those that don't understand that scare me with their advice. Yes I will take time (although biffy's head says I've had more than enough of that since my marriage ended) and I know it's not right to base my happiness on another but I can't help how much I love and I do know what I want and that is to share my love and life with someone always. I have to be right myself (is what others tell me) but hey this is who I am and I