nothing much to say - just reminding myself that I'm back here again.

 Same thoughts as always - a few good months, a few very not good months.  Kids are the most important thing but I'm not sure how long I can keep doing this.

I wonder when I'll next visit... I wonder if I'm going to take that first

Something happened at the weekend and it has left me feeling confused.

I had arranged to have a night out with a lovely lass I have met since everything went pear shaped at home. We have been out in company before but on Saturday it was just we two and my first time I had arranged to do anything like this for over 10 years. Now there is nothing other than a friendly drink involved here and that is where it will likely stay. Before I went out however I by chance picked up an album of photos of wife and I. I dont know why but when I looked at the photos of us looking so happy I got upset and

Just a few days away now, I have waited for this for so long,  I cannot believe its nearly here!

Last year whilst I was getting divorced, my life nearly came to a complete standstill, only my beautiful daughter and my job kept me going.  Oh a few friends of course, who would forget them, not me!

So this year, I have gone completely mad and arranged this and that to fulfil my dreams.  Thankfully I have enough money to let me pursue my dreams.

I am looking forward to August on a holiday with my friend, Bet, who's coming to London with me on saturday,  then Scotland in September, on a package