Restless nights and weird dreams have set it again. It was an emotional day yesterday when the tears wouldn't stop flowing, I think due to the build up of tension which required a much needed release. I actually think the tears are a positive thing. A good friend of mine wisely said that if we keep our emotions inside, they'll usually come out eventually as negative thinking and illness.

So, feelng much better and about to make the most of X still being here I'm about to go and work off the comfort eating from yesterday with a run. However before I do, a poem was bouncing around in my dreams

It was decidedly hard returning home today after a weekend with friends. Tension and atmosphere at home has slowly been building these past few weeks as X and I have tried to maintain some sense of calm in the house for the sake of the children, whilst we navigate the messy path of splitting up. This tension is reaching its crescendo. Communication has broken down and when we do talk it usually ends in a disagreement or most often, an argument.

Reasons for the breakdown of our marriage have been many. 9 years my senior and married at 20, I've grown up in this marriage from a naive girl who

Topsy Turvy World.

Hello my friends, not blogged for so long but thought it about time we had an update. On the way at last to enlightenment. What a year, what a bloody god damn awefull year. So many ups and down as we all have on here. Now I am happy to report that I have been handed back from the Mental health team to my own GP, this tells me that I am on the mend at last. Where am I in my life? Well the decri nisi came through in November I think and I have had my first court date, which the ex attended. I was in too much of a state at the time to even look at him so no idea what he was