just picked up for e fro sols along with a £700 bill for last months work! thats my holiday up the shute then! chilled with a glass of beer then feel so bloody down! alone and desperate!! please make it get better soon! i would have been cheaper to hire a hit man rather than a

Just read the replies to my blog and want to say thank you so much it is actually  heartwarming to have people tell me that they understand and know how I feel I guess it's those that don't understand that scare me with their advice. Yes I will take time (although biffy's head says I've had more than enough of that since my marriage ended) and I know it's not right to base my happiness on another but I can't help how much I love and I do know what I want and that is to share my love and life with someone always. I have to be right myself (is what others tell me) but hey this is who I am and I

He's just been today and brought back all my belongings and I knew the second I saw him how much I love him. We did not discuss our feelings although I did at one stage tell him that of course I wanted to be his friend but that can't work when I love him so much.  He said I must do what's best for me!!! He is what's best for me I know it. We both have so many wounds to heal that I know too but you know what? I just can't let go of this? Why? I don't know.

I had to go straight to bed when he left sending him a text to say how much pain I was in as if that would make him come back! I don't