Isn't it just? Every waking moment is what's going to happen? Where will I live? Is Daughter coping ok?

Going around the house. That needs doing, a rug would look good. Oh forgot, someone else will live here.

Even shopping, I loved trawling around furniture shops and hardware stores,

not been on this before, hope it'll help me. having a bad couple of days, went to docs this morning, and have been suggested that i take some counselling, think it might do some good.

it seems that everything i do is wrong.  my STBX wife has a list of my faults, very vocal in sharing... But, i have not missed any csa payments, i want to spend time with my boys, i take them on holidays, i'm paying the mortgage on the family home, i've offered her a lump sum to help pay the bills and give her some stability and control. i pick them up when i say i will, despite having the door slammed on my

6.45 this morning I dropped off my little girl around the STBX's as prearranged. As I am turning the car around I happen to notice "his" car.

I knocked on her door very loudly thinking irrational thoughts and dreading this day. She opens the door and I barge past heading straight for the stairs (my anger completely shot to bits), thankfully she stops me and I don't feel the urge to proceed any further, take a deep breath and turn and leave. I hear my daughter's crying as I depart and it tears me up.

I park next to his car thinking do I smash it up or not? Thankfully again something stops me and