Well I have been here nearly a week now and I have to say I am loving my new life. I miss my daughter very much but I know I have done the right thing.

I am going back down south today for her last ever parents evening.

I just hope that after the awful phone call I received from the ex's girlfriend last thursday that i don't see him driving about. It's was obvious from whatthe girlfrind said that he has lied to her as well. Well she is welcome to him and I hope that they will be very happy together they deserve each other.

Bad day today, my wife was back at work after 2 weeks of, doing a job that she doesn't really like a job that she had to take to keep a roof over our head. It is a very stressful job which just adds to her stress levels.

So I've been missing her being in the house, don't get me wrong it's nice to spend time with the kids and I love looking after them but in the back of my mind is always the thought that some day soon I won't be there to kiss them good night. I won't be there to ask my wife how her day was, to make her a cup of tea etc.

I think I might go and see the docs to get something to try

You never know what strength you have
Till it's put to the test
The crash you're waiting for won't happen
Till your mind's at rest
You think you know yourself; you don't
Until you realise
The darkest moments in your life
Are lessons in disguise
Do not regret a single thing
Your choices are your own
Let go of anger, doubt and hate
No way you could have known
That life would lead you down this path
It has though, so accept
That though the future may look bleak
You'll understand, expect
That good and bad things always come
It won't always be fair
But nothing in this big, bad world
Is ever too much to