Hi all

Changed from nibor to yinyang for all that know me

long time since last blog

Just to let you know now in rented accom

almost setteled down sleeping better now

only thing is i took the cat with me but it got out 3 wks ago and not come back!

it been 3 months since wife left me and i kind of gettting over it but still have my down days but they dont last has long now

Living on my own is hard after being with some one .

but to all that have just started on this long trail it gets does get better.

I have now joined a karate club and enjoying it up to now

also not having to ask anyone if i can go or

wow that seems like a heavy title but the truth is it is setting in.i know baby steps but here is the deal.signned the 2nd set of papers today,sbtx wants me out by may first,unemployed,new mortgage that i should have never taken on but have enough cash to float it until the end of the summer but...reality is setting in.and just need to get it off my chest.here i sit again on the computer but at least i did get some day work today and it felt good even for a couple of hours to be active.been living on the pity pot.in may i will leave to go to my new "seasonal home"water will be turnned on but

Had a much better day today work was ok and the sun shone and i got through it with no communications from my wife. Came back from work and went the gym to get rid of any anger felt much better. But tonight it has all gone downhill, went to do some decorating for my mother, and that broke me, the last time I decorated was with my wife in our home, ur beautiful home where we were both happy, why couldnt she tell me she was happy before i threw everything away? nothing is ever going to be the same again, I cant function without her , its ridiculous how dysfunctional I am without her, I cant