hi im new to all this chat/blog stuff i hardly use the internet im living in a refuge at the moment i think my ex husband is useing this site so i cant say to much about me as i dont want him to know any information i dont know where im going from here but i know it will be a much better life than i had with him he almost took my sanity from me without that youve got nothing  im one of the most strongest persons i know and have a very positive out look on life my cup is half full but he brought me to my knees ill never allow anything to do that to me again it was a very dark and lonely place

Thats just about it. Tomorrow I head off to my other bro's in Warrington and then its time to go home to Scotland on sunday. HHhhmmm. Home? That home goes on the market on the 2oth.

Yet again I'm becoming tearful about it. But this is it now. All summer I've pushed away the fact that this is going to happen. That I'm going to loose my home. I've really not wanted to think about it. And in a lot of ways I havent. But now there is no hiding. This is going to happen. I just wish that everytime I mention it or rather someone else does. I dont fall to pieces.

I've been thinking of all sorts of how

I've just run the divorce calculator. Apparently I'm going to give my STBX all bar £400 of my income soon. Wow - I hope I don't want to eat or do anything.  I want her to be happy but I think this gives her £300 a week to live off while I have a ton to pay for everything. Guess I'll be living in a tent eh?

We've knocked chunks out of each other today - I no longer recognise the woman downstairs as the woman I married.

She stormed off because I suggested that when I moved back to Scotland I would look after the children half the time.

I'm typing this in bed with my kids sleeping around me in a