I have been browsing round it seems for ever for answers reason to why i have ended up in the situation i am in

I have fh soon and will be seeing my sol on friday and why am i so sick to my stomach at the thought of seeing sol although seen him a trillion times (got bills to prove!!)

Its makng the situation almost final and very very real, I know I have said it over and over again..I left so in theory created the situation, but I ddnt leave just for a laugh or on a whim 4 long years of living seperately under same roof , finally i flipped

I have the children and no home at the moment he has

Well, I woke up this morning & I wasn't feeling happy at all. I awoke looking like I had been permed over night then my first daily thought was "why" I have been consumed in wanting answers frm my husband tht I now know I might never get, It has been driving me crazy.

I came on here early this morning feeling sorry for myself, Untill I vented my frustrations to another member of wiki in the chat room, Poor Falk :( But he made me see the light & has helped me take a step off the vicious circle I have put myself on. I can't keep on going the way I am, although I didn't like hearing him say it I

I feel such a fool. When i found out he had gone to his dads after only 3 weeks with her i thought it might mean he was coming home or might want to try again. Unfortunately he has not changed his email password and i keep checking his emails. His dad does not have internet access and tonite i checked them and he had read them at 8.25pm which means he must be with her. I know i just upset myself when i read his emails as i also read he has opened a new bank account.

I have not heard from him since he left but am still struggling to accept its over, even though it clearly is as he has a new