The last twelve months have hit me with more bad stuff than I can believe.  Lost several close relatives, a couple of friends have committed suicide, and now separation after 20 years. 

Unsurprisngly, I've been upset, hurt, and in despair much of the time.

But I still haven't cried.  Is that

Hey, I've been looking forward to this weekend since my daughter asked several weeks ago-just after her dad + I announced that we were splitting-if I would accept the gift of a luxurious Spa day at Champneys from her. She said I deserved some love + extra pampering. I was really touched by her thoughtfulness, put the thought of how much it would cost her out of my mind (with great difficulty I must add) + accepted her gift. I offered to pay for us both to have a treatment-she told me to wait until Mothers Day.

Mothers Day duly arrived + I received a voucher for a top-toe relaxing body

I rang "him" my husband because a water bill came. I didn't think he'd tlk but he did. Thats when my bubble burst he told me tht he is in a relationship with someone tht we both know, Then he had the audacity to frigging tell me tht he wasn't sure if his new relationship was going to work. Like what the heck, do I really want to know or care & surely he isn't wanting me to wait around to find out or to take him back.

He went crazy at me because the CSA are taking £150pw frm his wages, Do I feel gulity about tht NO! myb he should of paid me summit then the CSA wouldn't of stung him.

I have made