So this is it.  In 48 hours I will be out of my home, and unlikely to return.  It's down to the nitty-gritty of packing what I need to take with me right away until I find somewhere to live, and putting everything else in boxes so I can come back and collect them later.  Nearly all visible traces of me will be gone, except for one room, and that's what's going to hurt me the most.  It feels like I'm simply erasing myself from family history like some sort of Stalinist revisionist purge.

But more importantly, it's the last 48 hours with my kids before moving out  becomes a reality for them as

Another weekend is almost upon us. I am feeling more positive this weekend.My s2bx will be taking my son over to his place, and I will be on my own with my daughter,who of course will be going out with her own friends.

I have decided to go to London, to a craft and sewing show, on saturday.On sunday I will take myself to the gym.I have a dvd for saturday night.

I think the way to keep myself from feeling so down and alone is to keep busy ,plan ahead and try to occupy my mind with more positive things, and not to focus on what was, just on what is now and what life is going to be like.

I found a

I have realised that my previous blogs are far too introspective and in some cases, downright miserable! After reading Mongmong’s Blog entry “Why Blogging Helps”, I have decided that I need to look at all the good things in my life, and record them in future blogs, and be more upbeat when talking about my emotions – life is not all doom and gloom for me, but I do seem to only record the gloomy emotions!

This week, my children are spending with their dad, they were very excited in the build-up to the Easter holidays and seeing him again. Watching not just their faces, but his as well,