Something has happened to me over the past day or two. Not quite sure how to describe it, but I feel stronger, calmer and much more together, and far more positive than I have in a long time. This is good, and I hope it lasts! Mike62 sent me a wonderfully uplifting peom, which I printed out and is now on my fridge, I read it in full at least once a day. The weather today is awful, pouring rain/sleet, with snow due later this morning, strong winds and freezing temps. Today is the funeral of a man I knew and liked, a man who basically drunk himself to death. I worry that my s2bx will end the

Well she is out again and its just me and my girls who are fast asleep. Moved all my stuff into the spare bedroom so we have our own "space" now. It was my idea so I dont know why it makes me feel so down. I know its just a step on the way to the day when we go completely seperate ways when the house sells. I suppose its a good thing as I dont want her to see me getting ready for work or being around me so much now. I think its just part of saying goodbye to a marriage that is now over. Clearly it was over for her a long time ago. She asked me today if I want a dna test on our youngest. She

I m having to flip through this Blog, I missed a day or so, please bear with me. Monday afternoon was a bit flat and boring loads of time to my self, so much to do but so little enthusiasm to do any of it. I suppose it makes you a bit like that when the reason you had the enthusiasm to do so much before has left. My Daughters at work she looked so tired when I picked her up from school, I don’t think she slept much last night. I am a little concerned for her. She has a school trip abroad next week just for 5 days, I’m hoping it will help her to be away from the environment her mother