Friday sorry this is so very long. Yes as expected today turned into another deep downer. Last night all I could think about was divorce, having to sell my home and the dreaded finances of course. I still needed to hear what my wife’s plans were so I could deal with where my daughter wanted to go. I couldn’t switch off all night long and by the time my wife decided to turn up I was exhausted and desperate for some sleep. I was the one who went back over the same old ground telling her how I feel about her, how I’m hurting, not sleeping, what she has done to this family and so on. She tried

It is now so evident to me why I had to make the decision I did in July of last year. Had another bad night with my 11 year old son last night. He has no respect for me or what I have to say and will take no discipline that I hand out. He has to answer back at every opportunity and shows me such little respect. I know this is partly down to learnt behaviour from seeing his father treat me with no respect for as long as he can remember. I guess the situation is having its effect to and the fact that he is a hormonal 11 year old just adds to the problem. I am not giving him mixed messages as

After the highs and minor wobbles of the last three days its back on a downer for me today. I found that my wife’s sister had a huge row with my wife in front of their parents and all four ended up in tears, her sister virtually disowning my wife and everyone telling my wife that her lover will never be accepted, will never be welcome in their homes nor will they visit them either. Big brother got involved and it’s just another huge fall out in her family something I desperately wanted to avoid but I couldn’t, I had to tell my side of the story for the first time in years. I didn’t