If  you havent read my previous blog then in short this is a quick recap

I called it a day to the marriage relised I was in an abusive controlled relationship, went to relate they confirmed it. We split up it got nasty. I have two children 5 year old and a 3 year old (happy birthday darling). We had been togther for 23 years, married 7 of those, met when I was 13 years old.

Considering the above this is all to bizzare.

After the split in June/July 2007 he found someone else 3 weeks after he left all his family met her and he was being nasty to me and the children.  Then........

In September 2007

Well its another day of confusion.

After a long phone conversation with ex to arrange when the kids can come round at half term. There is a phone call a few hours later and ex says she did not check her diary and the original dates are now not possible.

 One of the things that my ex has never grasped is that always check exactly if certain dates are ok to agree. She seems to think that everything can be changed all the time.

Frustration is an understatement on how I feel on this point. I made my point clear to her on her cancelling and said one of the reasons we never got on was because she had

Soon to be ex husband  asked if we could talk last night, instantly I imagine that he wants to patch things up and I am already getting my hopes up, again.  No he wanted to say that he has divorce papers sorted etc etc.... hmmmmm.

I handled it well I think, and did not cry or attempt to get him to change his mind (I have done this several times in the past 3 years) Lots of the advice from this site kept me centred and mostly in control of my emotions.

This is definitely happening!  I have to say that writing this really helps,  I have never done anything like this before so I am quite amazed at