I have read with interest the bloggs today, and i think there is a very reflective content to them all, they cover such a range of emotions and blame, blame on ourselves, us , the people that have been used, hurt, controlled, abused, and lied to, yet we still all have a sense of questionable guilt as if we could have done more to make things better. WE are the ones that have tried to make things better, for our kids, and sometimes at our own cost our partners, and probaly lastly  ourselves. We all spend too much time analysing what we could or should have done, i am my own worst enemy at

Ok will start my story and write a bit on how I am feeling today.

I was married for 13 years, had known him for 18years, and decided in February 2007 that enough was enough.  He is a selfish, arrogant person, who put himself before others, thinks he knows everything etc.etc.   We have 3 beautiful boys who are my world.  I suffered postnatal depression after the birth of my second son, which turned into long term depression due to his attitude towards everything and anyone.  I tokd him in Feb 07 to go after 2 previous failed attempts (stupidly took him back) and he moved out in March 07.  I

Yesterday I recieved a text frm my stbx, Saying exactly in his words "just to let you know CAB have advised me to cancel all direct debits to the house and not to tlk to you only through sols, so I will let your sol know who mine is when get one. don't bother ringing me, if (sons name) wants me, Tell him to call me"

The direct debits i'm slowly sorting. I now will have my own tv licence sorted with MY name on it, AOL are being sorted, the nice lady at AOL is going to call my stbx to confirm he no longer wants the service & she will be setting up my own account & on a cheaper package. I'm proud