Thanks to those who replied to 'entry 1' and so quickly.  I didn't really expect anyone to read this!

 Not much  to report today.  The builder and plumber have nearly finished refitting the bathroom, pretty galling that I won't be here to enjoy it.  Have arranged for the estate agent to give me a valuation on thursday.  His advice is that selling right now is not a good idea so will consider renting it out.  We've only been here 2  years so little equity.  Perhaps that is a good thiing but we can't afford the mortgage individually so some thing has to give.

 Spoke to the children on the phone

I haven't blogged for a few days, I have had alot going on...

Sunday I came onto wiki & poured my heart out in the chat room. About how I have been covering up the bad things up in my life, By pretending it isn't really happening :( A special thks to Fat Boy Getting Slim & the others who comforted me & gave there words of comfort, suport & advise. I have decided to write about my life on wordpad, It's going to take me ages & i'm hoping it might give me some insight why I deal with certain situtions the way I do & why i'm so unjustly harsh on myself. I doubt tht i'd blog tht as some of it is

Met my x to be in 1987.

Got married in 1990

He moved into my home in 1989

Our beautiful son was born in 1996

We were happy but a family crisis distracted me and was supporting my brother when I found out he was having an affair. At the same time I discovered I was pregnant and with the thrill of impending motherhood and my x to be showing remorse and also being thrilled about becoming a father I was able to forgive. I look back now and realise he should have been supportive and maybe forgave too easily. Our marriage after that was a happy one.I took a years maternity leave and returned to