Today is agood day ...

I am feeling a totally different person. What has caused this -

my counsellor saying one thing

"when are you going to say thank you to Jane"

What say thank you to the woman who took my husband, who lied and cheated and broke my family up ...

But wait he is right.

She did me a huge favour probably the biggest favour anyone in my life is going to do...

I would never have left my husband, I would have taken him back after the affair, I would have continued to have run the house - done the decorating, the cooking, the cleaning and been the bread winner whilst he tried to find

Well year 06 was a hell of a year. I gave him so much support. Went to the magistrates court with him and gave him all my support as well as carrying the worries with regards to the implications his ban would have on his job. I also went to see an employment solicitor with him as he said he was being given unreasonable targets. I really did feel that he would recover and get his head togehter by taking time out from his job.I forgot to mention in my previous blog that he had recieved a disciplinay from work 2 years before if he didn't achieve targets and I sort of blamed "his liaisons" in

Lost.Totally lost after feeling totally abused and having that time to think about things since he left December 06. Frightened,confused, and how could I have lived with a man I didn't really know. Maybe my recovery is to begin to believe he wasn't the person I thought he was. And not to make excuses anymore. Am starting to believe in myself again and recognise the person I was before I met him. But it's shattered dreams and I wonder is he really happy where he is now. Can't be if running up bills of 17k on having a good time. Too superficial .He has not returned to work but on sick leave.