First to the GP to try and establish why the anti-depressants have been making me feel more more caffinated than a branch of Costa Coffee. Seems I am one of the unlucky few who react this way, and I have some new sweeties to try along with another sick note for work.

Then I trawl some letting agents, which is like going to estate agents but with really cheap carpets. Not sure why I bothered as everything's on the net these days but it gets me out of the flat. I arrange a couple of viewings for the following day then decide to walk across town to check out the locations. It buckets down and I

Want to say lots but dont know were to start so sorry if i ramble on ........... Today started like any other kids up breakie school bus etc. Got back home and felt strangely alone I wasnt workin today so thought id use the time to catch up on jobs ironing and all the stuff we mums (and dads sorry) have to do. Had lunch with a friend bit of shopping collected kids and took son to counselling. Suppose I realised that this is it for the next **** many years. Dont get me wrong i love my kids to bits but sometimes we need the comfort of another adult too.

I starting thinking about the things I

Now I'm home-sitting here having a cry.

We were civil to each other-he was keen to tell me all about how he was doing etc, but I said I wasn't interested. We had arranged to meet to sort out how we can progress to the future. Making agreements that are acceptable to both of us without clocking up horrendous sol fees. That, we both agree on.

I'd put some 'slap' on, + dressed smartly-I wasn't going to meet him looking a mess. I am upset now, because he looked really good-like the bloke I loved + fancied passionately. I wanted him to take me in his arms + hold me, but that was never going to