The day started much like any other.. except for one thing... I slept right through!!  Think I was so exhausted.  Was so surprised to hear my alarm go off..

Kids up, dressed, fed and packed off to respective childcare.  Felt so good with a proper nights sleep that I was singing at the top of my voice in the car all the way to work.

Work.. well was a normal day, but i now have 4 days off... figured I could do with the break.  Home again at 6.30pm kids packed off to bed, am now sat watching Rangers in the Uefa, with my new partner, who is totally rangers daft.  He is spending 1 of his 2 nights

Another day and more depression.Woke up early after going to bed late as was unable to sleep.Woke up same way as I went to sleep ,crying.Pathetic aren't I?

This week and last has been a real drain on me, keep sleeping during the day and feeling unable to face things.Last weekend I got some escape from things as I went to stay with a friend and was kid free but comming back home here and having to face more stress is doing me in.I have forms from the council to fill in and my financial statement to prepare for for court..and now we have squirrels in the loft and a hole in the roof obviously..of

well ive just sent him a txt, re the weekend, basically he wanted to see me tuesday just gone and i said no...couldnt handle seing him before i had to start back at work, sooooo i said either friday or sat would be good for me..he said he would let me know...but having spoken to his mum (whom i get on really well with) she said he was waiting to hear back from me, which isnt strictly true as he said he would let me know...

 now ive just sent him a txt to say can do friday as likely to be busy the rest of the weekend...now just waiting to hear back...he wont check his phone for ages so im