I knew the stillness of the weekend was never going to last.

The little got up at 5am, which isn't really a problem for me so got him breakfast and then the STBX go up, strange I thought as she normally doesn't bother.

Then it started. Why haven't you done this, why did you do that, when are you going, when will you be back, aaahhhhhhhhhhh

Not sure what has caused it as we really haven't seen much of each other over the weekend?  The only bit I could figure out was that I hadn't done some bits of the daughters home work with her (as I didn't know about it, slightly difficult). Then on to our

Ok - so after 29 years of marriage and 22 years of bringing up the kids and being out of the job market I have to start fending for myself.  You know hey - its a new challenge and what is life without purpose and the striving to survive?  If you think about it - Darwin and all that - its how we evolved, we need to struggle, we need to strive.  So wots she on about now?  Who knows?  When I sit here with a post-it note on my head that reads 'Who am I? Its what I do when I have much too much to drink.

So I need a job, so I need an interesting job, so I have been doing some research. So whats out

I've finally realised that at 42 you cannot pretend to be 18.  Had the big night out last night with the boys and as expected a certain amount of beer and a curry and a late taxi back to where we were staying.  Got in about 2am and feel so tired today.  Do I need more practice?

I said last week that I am getting more questions about what I am doing and tonight is no exception.  She wanted to know all about the evening/weekend and what was said - truth is I can't remember too much and most of it was usual blokes talk about nothing.  We did discuss my situation and there seems to be a lot of