wife suddenly decided after a week away with her family she liked her freedom and wanted out of our marriage. result,totally gutted. no 3rd party involved. married 22 years 60k mortgage 200k equity. 2 kids, one aged 18 working. one aged 16 looking for work. doesn,t want relate or mediation, just me to move out and pay most of the bills. i have never seen such a change in anybody, cold, doesn,t want to talk wants as little to do with me as possible. when i walk in,she walks out.going to see a solicitor this week to find out what my options are. this is day 9 and my head is all over the place.

I've never done this before. I've joined a forum, found and uploaded a picture and now I'm doing this! I've done so many things since my life was turned upside down last July, most of which I'd rather not have, like given a solicitor £3000 in exchange for a decree nisi and a tree's worth of pointless letters, like cuddling my kids and telling them it's alright and we're fine when I'm not coming close to fine.

One thing that strikes me is that there is so much pain. You get lost in it and end up believing it's just you - life certainly kick's you when you are down. It all just happens and you

Today = :'(

On the whole, a better day than Friday which was the worst so far, although we did have a mild disagreement ealier.

I think I am being too honest for her, I am sharing my feelings in an open way and I'm not sure she wants to hear them. So, we have agreed that we won't do this for a while.

Today was the first time I had seen her cry which was a surprise as this has all been her decision. I think I was believing that as this is what she wanted, she's happy with the situation. I now know this isn't the case.

Yesterday we were talking about things after Christmas and how it would be