Day life ended +6

Today's feeling = Still being positive

X2B is off to see a pychiatrist ths afternoon in Málaga, I hope that goes well for her. She's taken her bloke for comfort and not me. This was a strange feeling but with the experience of the last few days I have accepted that I am no longer going to be the one who is "there for her".

C'est la vie.

I'm off to pick up our daughter at wife's best friend' house in a minute and it will be interesting to see how that goes. Best friend is a good person and is not on anyone's side. In fact, she was devastated when we told her about our split.

well hearing done he decides to take offer from 12 months ago only he dragged it on another 8 months.

He tried to agree so not to pay for court mmmmmm to late notice though.

All started you are sol x and y for a & b ect. Yes Mam and all that which I thought was a little over the top for a divorce hearing.

Anyway as usual I have to do all the running to sort everything he wants out.

After the abuse texts calling me fat and other tacky sticks and stones.

Proud of myself no tears which was 1 promise I wanted to keep for myself.

However sticks and stones can still be nasty no matter how much you say

Today's feeling = Being positive

I realised yesterday that as a husband, I failed my wife.

Even in the midst of all the anger, despair and just plain emptiness of feeling at the moment I have looked back on the past few months leading up to her telling me it's over and realised that it is partly my fault.

I took her for granted. I saw her changing, improving her life, getting fit (and, sod's law working overtime here, she does now look stunningly attractive!!!), learning Spanish and integrating with the community and I just sat there and watched TV / played with our daughter.

She's left me