Now I am just getting silly – thinking Oh my God what will happen when the money runs out, so I rushed out of the house to stock up on essentials.

So now I have enough hair dye and coffee to last the year, should I be getting anything else in? I have a bottle of bubbly for my celebration of something, resolution I think. Maybe I should go blonde next time?

Did a bunk this weekend – got into the car and drove to the coast, told not a soul where I was, really stupid idea but had to be done, probably. Well no it didn’t have to be done to be honest, but I did it in any case.

Managed to find

went to see sol today. she said that if the house is sold it would go in favour of wife because if the kids 18,16 went with her she would have to rent a bigger house and i would have to pay the extra as well as maint??, when i told her this she said if i moved out and payed the mortgage and endowments untill the youngest doesnt need the house anymore then she would agree to a 50,50 split, if i dont do this she will take me for all she can get, thats great considering i dont want this in the 1st place. so it looks like it could be going from a lovely house to a room in someone elses house. is

OK-I relpied to solicitors letter today.I have no objection to D providing access to children can be agreed.This is when the s**t hits the fan......Things could get nasty! I know we won't agree and this is one issue I won't budge