To cut a long story short, was divorced 5 years ago, ex found someone else got her pregnant

, moved her in house (as i wouldnt move out). eventually moved out but ex blackmailed 6 children to live with him through cafcass, so couldnt claim half of house. did a diy divorce so no ancillary relief either as didnt know what i was signing. now am struggling finances as not allowed to claim tax credit for children for time that they stay with me each week and have been told by solicitor that can claim for house now as ex got married but cannot now afford sol fees of £500 down and £100 per

Having a funny old day today. Thoughts all over the place, head in bits. Nothing new there then! :lol: Our hotel hosted a silver wedding at the weekend. Have known the couple since I was at school, going on 30 years. Seeing them so happy and fulfilled, with all their children, friends and family around them upset me. That just isn't going to be for me. So it's a feeling sorry for myself day. Get it out of my system and write it all down. Feel better for having done something positive. Went to see my children's heads of year this morning, as I am concerned about their perfomance at

No luck on the sleep front over the weekend. To be honest, my minds a bit blurred at the moment so some of this may be a bit jumbled.

Friday night X2B was out with her boyfriend (J). I went to bed as per usual but couldn't sleep. Must have nodded off and then woke at 3:00 with her not home. This is unusual as she normally comes in before 2 when the bars shut. So, as I worry about her, I agonised over texting her for half an hour then did so. She replied that she was having a fight with him and would be back soon. Couldn't get back to sleep after she came back so had about 3 hours