Having a strange time with myself.

working really hard but getting so much enjoyment in being part of the gang at work..seem to have become a human being again, stopped making to do lists and am now just having a laugh with the girls.

I've never really been one of the gang, through my own fault..forgot about being a person I just became a mother and wife. I wonder if that's really what went wrong with the marriage, met the tasks forgot to have any fun.

But now I know it's too late.

Was driving to work this morning and thought will I ever settle down again, started daydreaming about happy endings

Well, I've just spent the last 30 minutes consoling our daughter (M). She's here on a visit this evening and all was going well until bed time when the "why can't you and mummy live together" questions started.

Lots of tears from both of us and she called X2B who did a good job of getting her to laugh for a while. Unfortunately, that disappeared when M finished the phone call. More tears and more questions.

I'm hoping that tiredness is playing a big factor in this as M was out late last night with X2B and late nights normally catch up with M the night after.

I spoke to X2B afterwards and

she called again at lunch and left a pathetic message about me ignoring her. so i broke down and called her back. when i did, the whole conversation was, "what's going on?" "nothing - working" "oh..ok...was just checking in" "ok" "did you want to say something?" "what do you want me to say? you made it clear we had nothing else to discuss" then her office phone rang and she had to go.
All that for nothing. What a stupid situation!